fuck this atrocity of a holiday...

I never did really say much in my own thread.

 

I am definitely a holiday person, but this year is completely different than any holiday season prior to this one for me, only because it's the first time I've been away from my family at this time of year. I think I'm coping well, since I moved into a great situation and out of a dead end one, but I still miss a lot of close friends and family members.

 

Normally, I'm pretty festive. I usually even go to a tree farm and pick out a real tree. This year, I opted for the fake one, but made up for it by buying seven boxes of Christmas ornaments. The bf and I spent WAY too much money on friggin' ornaments this year, but we couldn't stop buying them.

 

As far as the religious implications, I grew up in a family where we typically read from the Bible on Christmas day. I don't know how I feel personally about religion, and may never know, but I do know I felt a connection with the rest of my family since the scripture thing was sort of a tradition. I'll miss it this year.

 

But 2005 has been all about starting anew for me, and this is just another example of that. I'm in the best place, physically and otherwise, I've ever been, so the good definitely outweighs the bad.

 

As far as things getting commercialized, what can I say, I'm a sucker for it. I mentioned the ornaments. I always look forward to the "crazy for you" Stetson commercial because it signifies that Christmas is very soon. I always spend twice as much as I plan to spend on Christmas presents. And I mean it - honestly - when I say I don't expect anything in return. I get plenty out of watching other people open presents. I can't say anyone has ever truly bought me anything that I've loved, but it really doesn't matter.

 

I don't think anyone should be alone on Christmas Eve or Christmas day, and we've actually invited a bunch of friends over who otherwise would have been. I'm not really the overwhelmingly sentimental type, but I do think it's a great day to get together and enjoy the company of your friends. I have a lot of family members I've always had to tolerate on Christmas day that I don't have to deal with this year, so the bright side is that this is the first year ever that everyone I'm around is someone that I want to be around.

Christmas Day has now shrunk down to six people, one who can't talk and another who's a raving psycho most of the time. Should be one to forget.

I'm pretty much spending Saturday through Monday with my parents and my brother only, which is cool because we all get along. It's actually the long-distance relatives that I have some troubles with, with some exceptions. On top of that, my family helped me with my big move, and have been very supportive of me after my break-up, so a little R&R with them ain't gonna be a problem. Plus, my dad needs a drinking buddy for the football this weekend. I'm so there.

I don't see what all the fuss is about Holidays. Just another day to me, same as any other.

 

Christmas is the worst. Everything shuts down and the music is incredibly annoying.

Oh shit, I love Xmas music.

 

If I didn't have kids, I honestly would not give 2 shits about this holiday season. The best part is the 2 1/2 weeks off from work. After that, it means absolutely nothing to me. BAH HUMBUG MOTHERFUCKERS.

Christmas music is great!

 

 

... until you've heard it for hours on end, for five or so days.

 

Damn radio stations didn't play the Grinch theme nearly enough.

There ya go. I like a handful of Christmas tunes, but the rest have begun to wear my nerves down. So what'd everyone get for Christmas? I landed mostly film-related books, a Curb Your Enthusiasm shirt, speakers, portable DVD player (again), the Complete Calvin and Hobbes and a few other things.

 

My bro got a video iPod so now I can feel inferior all the time. We put that and my iPod photo up to each other. You'd think mine was years old. Piece of primitave junk.

Too much clothes. I think people realize that I usually won't be bothered to buy any new clothes so they get them for, even though I don't really ask for any. On the other hand, there was a list of 5 or 6 DVDs that I wanted, but only got 1, since they know I'll just go out in a few days and buy them all up, anyway.

I'd kill for clothes personally, cause I don't get them anymore. Prices on good stuff I'd like to buy cost insane prices. I should not pay more than half the price of a fucking video game to get a shirt I like just because it has a designer tag or because it has a logo of something or other on it.

 

...I usually just get trinkets or stuff. Well, I won't be getting too many gifts after this year, cause it'll only be immediate family (sister, mom, and dad) giving out gifts to me. Not that I really care about getting gifts, just saying.

Christmas "dinner" was brief, but enjoyable. Despite the lack of traditional Christmas food, it was good and since there were so few here, plenty to go around. I took on everyone else in the '90s version of Trivial Pursuit, almost winning every time until I finally did. Everyone was shocked that I was able to answer all of the hip-hop related questions. Everyone was gone by 3:30, but it was still a good time. I do miss the days of the big Christmas gathering, although I should not kid myself into thinking we all took part in great festivities until the witching hour.

 

Probably the most relaxing part of the day was kicking back with some leftovers by myself, plopping into the comfy chair and taking in the Lakers/Heat game.

Don't know if this has happened to anybody else, but I sure hope so. Now I'm never around kids anymore and I haven't really cared about Christmas for 15 years (26 now) so I'm not used to "keeping the illusion" of Santa Claus anymore. So today I'm talking to my cousin and she was showing pics of her kids meeting with Santa Claus at their house. Without thinking I say "hey how much did you have to pay that guy to come to your house"? Problem was my 3 year old cousin was right there. I kind of caught my self and she quickly covered for me but I feel like a total jackoff. I think she was pissed. Damn. Shit I'm just not used to be around little kids.